Another hope

On 12/12/12..

The doctor at Twin Tower Medical Centre confirmed that..
I am..
indeed..

Pregnant!

:)

Actually it's been 1 week since i peed on my first stick..

Memang itupon hobi bulanan aku..
Pregnant tak pregnant lain kira.. period lambat sehari jek iols dah kencing atas stick..
Huhuhu..

And since my last pregnancy almost 1 year 4 months ago..
All the sticks turn up "negative"

Actually, last month i really thought i was pregnant..
I did my test while i was on a business trip to Bintulu..
Period lambat 3 hari.. Tetek sakit..
Sah.. ni confirm pregnant nih..
Tapi bila test "negative" jugak..
Sob sob..
"Tak pe lah.. belum rezeki" .. ku pujuk hati sendirik..

So this month..
Ntah kenapa nak test pon tatau..
Period aku nih mmg weng sket.. Kejap cycle 30 hari.. Kejap cycle 37 hari..

Since ade balance pregnancy kit yg murah2 tu..
5 Dec 2012 tu..Bgn jek dari tido terus carik pregnancy kit.. Hari ni i started my study leave seminggu..
Kalau ikut cycle last month which is 37 days.. period aku lagik 7 hari baru due.. Huhu..
Tapi gatal gak nak kencing kan..

Bila kencing..
Tengok stick tu tak tukar kaler pon..
Ah.. gagal lagik bulan nih..

Aku letak ke tepi sambil aku sambung urusan.. Hehehe..
Lepas siap semua aku pon nak pegi buang la kan..
Sekali nampak macam double line..
Tapi samar2 jek..

Mase tu dah tak tentu arah..
Sengih macam org bengong..
Nak cuba kencing kat pregnancy kit spare jenama ClearBlue.. Tapi air kencing dah habis semua tadik.. Hahahha..

So aku pon minum air banyak2..
Next round kencing pada ClearBlue plak..
Baru la nampak line tu clear sikit..
Alhamdulillah..

But since my bad experience last year..
Aku nak happy sangat menaruh harapan pon tak berani..
Plak tu line tu samar2 jek.. Huhuhu..
Memula ingat takmo bagitau Leman pon..
Nak tunggu la lama sket kan..

Tapi I notice this nagging mild pain kat lower right of my abdomen..
And all my googling point out to a possibility of an ectopic pregnancy..
And with ectopic lagik kau delay lagik bahaya kan.. Huhuhu..
So tengahari tuh tak tahan bagitau la jugak kan Leman..
But i mention the possibility of ectopic too sebab tanak la dia berharap sgt plak kan..

From then on..
The pain is still there on and off..
Aku pon kejap happy kejap sedih..

So masuk jek kerja rabu tu terus pegi TTMC..
And also I've book an appointment with Dr. Dev untuk petang yg sama..

Only Allah know how sick i was with worry..
And there's nothing either of us can do except to continue praying for the best..